photos and video via Izzy
Last night was our final concert of the season and my last concert ever. Though I wasn't really psyched about being there for a few reasons (recent breakup, feeling unprepared, nervousness, etc.), I went because I had to. After a day of barely eating and way too many hours spent sleeping, I got myself together, put on a pretty dress and made my way to the concert venue aka BU Central.
As the choreographer/costume designer/fun machine, I'm responsible for making sure everyone looks good. So, right before the show, I gave this inspirational speech:
It must have worked, because last night was our best concert ever! I will admit that I freaked out a bit during my solo- my song, "Why Can't I," is all about the beauty of starting a new relationship. As I stood there onstage, microphone in hand and staring at an autographed photo on the room's back wall, I willed myself not to be nervous. I think it was the words "...isn't this the best part of breaking up, finding someone else you can't get enough of" that really got me.
Though I tried to be happy, those words really spoke to me. Yesterday, my perfect, new relationship was dissolved- no longer was I sitting around, waiting for him to figure himself out. He says he can't love anyone right now, and that's a real shame.
Like I said to him in my final text message:
"I think I would have fallen in love with you if you'd let me. That's what hurts the most."