Yesterday, I received some news that was particularly hard for me to digest. Though I won't go in to detail, it is family related and involves someone very important to me.
When I first heard the news, I burst into tears. I tried to explain my feelings to my roommate, but it was hard to put them into words. I IMed Thibault and told him I was crying, and he immediately offered to come over to be with me, to sit with me while I cried and to attempt to make me feel better.
As I waited for him on the front steps of my building, I thought about how lucky I am to have met a boy who would drop everything when I needed him. Sure, he doesn't always understand the things that are bothering me (blame it on his gender, or the large cultural divide), but he has figured out the things that make me happy.
After holding me in his arms and letting me cry for a few minutes, he told me to get my coat so that we could walk around the park. He then said we had two options: to sit on the first bench we came across, or to go to the pond with all of the ducks. I chose the latter.
We sat by the pond for a while, I did most of the talking, and soon I was feeling a little better. For some reason, watching those birds was enough to calm me down. After a while I was even laughing at the ducks and swans.
I made a batch of brownies when I returned to my flat, and Thibault stayed with me until I fell asleep...during an episode of Chuck. While I'm still upset about my family issue, a part of me is happy. Love is a complicated thing and I know it's going to be difficult to leave him in a month. Still, if this is what love feels like, then I'm glad I've finally experienced it. I am a lucky girl.